a Karma of life

I still care about everything about Yayansan even I haven't been there for a long time, and I treasure everyone and everything I meet there. This experience totally divides my life into two part. And I will definitely recommend this program to my friends, but only someone who deserve it. Actually I have done it.

Those days in Bali changes me a lot, I mean, I am even not afraid of dogs and insects now. After Bali. Maybe there is another new personality built, which drives me to see more of the world and love the world, and the personality is sharped by specific culture and I am a brand new people because I do give and receive a lot of love that is rare in the highly competitive life. I really want to contact with people with different cultural background and I realize that everybody deserves sincere affection. What's more I decide to study in Europe after graduation because I am so impressed and touched by the volunteers from there and I decide to keep studying psychology to help more people develop and lead a better life.

Yayasan is my harbour, another home of me. Sometimes while I am walking in metropolitan city, the moment in Bali occurs to me and I really want to go back to Bali. What's more, I also listen to the music again and again, the music I heard in komang's warung. I am not that into singing songs before, but now, I really enjoy singing aloud. Whereas there is no warung to sing and nobody to sing with.

I miss my dear friends everyday even we just have a short encounter! In Bali, just being with children, locals and volunteers can make me happy. But after I left there to China, I just feel so upset and stressful but I have no choice because I have to stay in university to finish my degree. But how can a person accept the dull life after seeing the wonderful world.

At beginning I have no appetite to eat and no mood to do anything. Then Somebody comforts me that times in heaven is temporary, the human's world is ordinary state and departure is always a inevitable theme. As Buddha Sakyamuni once said, there are seven sufferings throughout one's lifetime as suffering since being born, aging, illness, death, duhkha, suffering as farewell to the beloved, suffering as pursuing devotionally for something and somebody yet keeping out of reach for ever.

It really costs me a long time to get over this nostalgia, and now I decide to be a person where she was there is a miracle. I still have lots of things to do in Bali, such as climbing the Batur, snorkeling in Gili and diving in Tulamben......there must be another Karma for me to come back to Bali again. See you!